Hi again
I am in a really good place again - thank you all. I did not ride this afternoon - bit too nervy and came up with lots of great excuses..so went for a walk instead..During the walk, I decided (after much good counsel -thanks BNAers) that the incident was totally out of character and I have apologised -therefore I have decided that I am OK and will move on. Can't undo it.
Womble - It was not a BCC bus - this was a sunshine coast local bus service - I didn't get the rego or bus no -and really don't think I could even id the driver now - funny what the body and mind can do in stress situations.
Am glad that you all approve of sending the email - as with all my 'conversations' it was very long - will probably take them a week to read it....
A good friend (a solicitor) is appalled that I admitted liability both to the police and to the bus company.....especially seeing there was no way for them to ID me - but I think it was the best option for peace of mind - at least after 'losing it', I did, according to my code - do the right thing.
New lights for the bike arrived this evening - apparently very bright and should provide good daytime visability- hubby very quick off the mark - bless.....
will look at getting a mirror - but a little worried that I might focus too much on behind and not enough on what's in front - as a newbie I still have to concentrate on bike handling/gearing etc - and am constantly scanning the road for 'scary things' - sticks, glass, cars, peds, lumps bumps and holes -
Am determined to keep riding - and as suggested do lots(?) of Gyndier hill repeats - urghhhh.... while I get my confidence back.
I'll give the crit track another go - it is really quite tough (for me) so will go there and try to improve my speed and bike handling- get the kids to scream stop at various intervals.
my husband is home on the 4th and I'll get him to ride with me. He can sit on my wheel for a while and mind me.....
My girls have been great but not fair to expect them to babysit Mum - plus I want to learn to get faster and fitter and that takes miles in the legs....so no more sooking.
I am thinking about going to talk to some people about getting some kind of 'share the road' event here on the sunny coast.....while I have not been riding long I have participated in a few events and a couple of club rides - they are always well attended and I see stacks of cyclists - both 'us' knicks and clipins types and people of all ages, shapes and sizes just enjoying themselves. (not that we don't enjoy ourselves....
- it just seems that we pee more people off....must be the lycra or maybe the drop bars...)
anyway just to say thanks to you all and if I hear from the Bus company I'll let you know - if the worst happens and the guy wants me charged then I'll get the girls to post my bond quickly... and perhaps flee to a country without extradition and great cycling....-Fiona